Awake

I woke up this morning to a female voice calling my nickname in my right ear.  My sleep addled brain managed a "what?" and something else in reply before I opened my eyes, regaining full consciousness.  I rolled over to find that my boyfriend was not there.  I laid in bed for quite some time before venturing down the hall.  The cat greeted me, but the boyfriend had already left for work long before the voice had awoken me.

my ascendant is wtf

When I was young enough to think I knew everything, I looked old enough that people listened.  Now that I'm old enough to admit I know little, I apparently look young enough that no one wants to listen to my well-researched facts.

I had a frustrating encounter a while back.

There was a young woman seeking to learn more about astrology.  The older woman confessed to not knowing much about astrology, specifically the stuff I had never delved too deeply into like trines and degrees and chirons, etc.  So I candidly expressed that I was no expert myself.  All I can say is, I really should give myself more credit.  Apparently my idea of not knowing a whole lot is a bit different than other people's.

First there was the usual conflation of astronomy and astrology.  I tried to explain that the Tropical zodiac we use in Western astrology has nothing to do with where the constellations have moved.  I went over all the basics I've said before in my other blog, like explaining in detail why your sign has not frikkin changed.  I had to clear up the usual cusp bullshit of "but this book says I'm a Cancer and this book says I'm a Leo."  (You have to go by the planetary placements the year you were born... not what the back of the TV guide says it is this year.)  I had to hear all about sun signs not fitting people as if the rest of their charts didn't even exist.  I didn't even bother getting into the decanates as I was already pulling blank looks at this point.

I heard just about every stereotypical misconception about astrology there is, and every time I tried to correct their misinformation I was merely listened to quietly and then they continued on with their conversation as if I had said nothing of relevance.  Did what I say really just go over their heads that much?  Or were they just thinking I couldn't possibly have the 'wisdom' of the older woman?

I felt so frustrated and impotent.  But this is pretty typical for my run-ins with the Pagan community.  This is also why I stay out of most political conversations.  It's one thing if we have differing opinions... but damn it, your opinions do NOT trump facts.

rawr

I hate how blogspot doesn't remove deleted posts from your dashboard until a century later.  I always see things that interest me, but turn out to have already been deleted.

door hinge

I received a call from someone I hadn't spoken to in a while.  It was a good conversation overall, but it dredged up some painful memories.  That night I had a rather vivid dream.  I was over my friend and her fiance's house eating oranges.  But tiny little bugs started crawling out of the orange slices, and then out of the other food as well.  I was remarkably calm in the dream even though I was intensely grossed out.  I feel like this dream might be more than too much pizza before bed... but I'm not sure how to interpret it other than the obvious - "bad", "decay", "ruin", most likely in regards to the phone call.

anam cara

I met a very special person on Oct 1st. 

That night I dreamt of this person.  He was wearing a Claddagh ring with a green stone that matched my celtic knot ring.  We were both wearing our rings on our left ring fingers.  I remember explaining to him that if the ring pointed outward it meant he was single, and if it pointed inward it meant he was married.  He flipped the ring inward and outward a few times, but I don't remember which way it ended up before I awoke. 

Botanica

Botanica

This came up in conversation and I could not think of the word.  It was driving me crazy.  OK, well I actually did remember the word but I kept thinking I had to be wrong because it meant "plants" and it's the name of a dungeon in WoW.

pagan fail

I know everyone was "new" to the craft at one point or another, but please try to use some common sense.  Do not burn toxic plants or hallucinogens... especially around company without telling them first.  Do I even need to explain why?